I have been the most assertive today than I've ever been since coming to this country. It was the very few time I was able to articulate myself, stand on my truth and sway the opinion of the foe. I was able to take account of the attorney's request and refuse the demands based on my professional assessment. But this feeling of accomplishment was soon overtaken by my insecurity. I have not been able to sleep the last few nights. I try to forget it but it has been difficult.

It's my rationale self battling this inner child's fear. My rationale self is trying to calm her down. My rationale self is trying to reassure her but it is not working. My rationale self knows that I have done all that I could. I went with my gut and I ran with it. My inner child wants to retreat to a corner. I am trying to settle her down and I can't. She is still scared. I hope tomorrow, my rationale self will stay in the forefront. It is not a battle that should be fought. But crazies are everywhere and my rationale self knows that you do what you have to do and even if the outcome may not be favorable, it is still ok. 

Good luck to me, my rationale self says. I will be there for you my inner child.